Where My Smile Begins

More than just moments with you..

First and foremost Good Morning beautiful. I just want to start this journal entry by saying thank you for including me period… reaching out to me, making time for me, the random visits and phone calls, and most importantly you giving me the opportunity to see Mia! Even though I miss my other babies, you still do your part by sending pictures of moments you captured with them. And that is more than enough. I just want you to know your actions never by pass me! I’m extremely proud of your consistency when it comes to working out and eating healthy! It truly shows because you are absolutely beautiful it doesn’t make any sense. 

Only if you can see how you pause time for me… having the feeling of knowing you’re about to stop by and I see your truck pull up… I’m ready to give everything when i see you lol but most importantly I can’t help but to smile from my heart, cheek to cheek lol when I see you! …. Just smiling alone when I see you tells me everything… and then here you go blushing 😂 and then having the opportunity to see Mia is everything! She’s growing up so fast on us! But as always still smart as ever with an appetite out this world lol if Mia keeps being this spoiled we gonna have to ask Cody and Clarence to claim her on taxes lol…. Ok I’ll stop but back to the main point I’m extremely proud of you Mary…. And thank you for slowly dropping your guard to allow me to be there for moments that are difficult for you. I know it’s not easy sometimes to express certain things but lately you have been very comfortable telling me what you need and i absolutely love it! There is nothing I would not make possible for you. Everything I do as a man every single day benefits what I want the future to be for us. And even though we are not there right now does not stop me from helping and protecting you. But most importantly being there to listen and provide for you. It’s been an extremely tough couple of weeks for you but your faith held it down for sure! And also I hope my Superman Jr is doing ok and so is Cody and Clarence! I think all the time it’s not easy to deal with what they are growing through. But God gives his toughest battles to his strongest warriors and I’m starting to see your family is full of warriors from your mom down to your brothers and sister and father! I really love them all and keep them all in my prayers. 

I’m really waiting on the day I can truly spend time with you ❤️ I can’t wait to see you Thursday for a little! It’s just the hugs for me…. Like why do we have to let go when a moment is so perfect! Some times i hate the aspect of time lol always interrupting!! lol but it’s ok because in those moments I choose to get lost in you! But most importantly I see you Mary… your smiles to me are more intentional and well felt. It’s like I can feel your excitement in my heart lol and don’t get me started on you blushing. Like for instance you seeing me and Mia. when i glance at you it’s like you’re so happy but trying to hide it lol but the cheeks automatically turn red 😂 it’s beautiful to see this from you… and it’s not a bad thing at all! My love grows for you every second of the day. If there is something to appreciate in this world… it’s you! You just make life a complete blessing Mary. There’s nothing I look forward more to in my daily activities than being with you or talking to you❤️ I miss you and Bary. I can’t wait to just have a day of relaxation with you and Bary. Both of y’all. But it’s coming I can feel it. But overall let me stop… because God knows i can sit here and vent about you all day! But I love you and I love your family always and I want to start saying that more towards your family to because i always want you to know my heart beats for them as well and there’s nothing I wouldn’t do for them ❤️ I LOVE YOU MARY & BARY and as always I hope you have an amazing day because if not… I’ll be right there to do what I can to make it better.