So you calling me every morning for the past two days..... IM BLUSHING!!! LOL but even though I appreciate you calling me, I paid attention to all you were talking about on the phone. Shaunti, Your Dad, & TT....... Mary...... How can I be there? My heart hurts when you you go through these things privately. So I dedicated this journal entry to let you know I've always had a plan and you are protected.... I work full time now... so heres what I was thinking....
SHAUNTI & THESE HOURS:
I never wanted you worrying about the money, and I know you trusting me right now is very hard for you but you are more than secure over here and here is what I was thinking.... I would lIke to give you $250 every week..... that's $1,000 dollars a month... it doesn't interfere with my personal budget. Reason I say this is because you will still be working your hours and putting in your own work, but this will allow you to remove the worries of making sure you can cover any expenses, gas, or food. and if you need more i'm here.... I just want you to know i'm in a position to where you honestly don't need to work... but I would want us to get to a more secure space in recovering our relationship before we go into those depths... but the $250 a week i'm firm on.... but this will be up to you to let me know. I dont look forward to nothing and I dont want to ask for anything... I just want you to always know that I love you and everything im doing is to secure our future. You will never see my actions through these words I type, you probably will never see these actions anytime you speak to me but only me and God knows what is happening. You're making me want to not only just love you, but protect, nourish, and secure your protection.....You will see day by day I've been placed here for you. But thats the man you make become for you! ITS ALL YOU! ....I love you Mary and I chose to love you.... your problems are my problems, your pain is my pain...... Let me help you with my heart guiding it every step of the way....
TT & Your Dad
Two of the strongest most difficult people ive met in my life. LOL but all jokes aside my love and prayers are always with them. I dont miss my prayers for their strength and protection. Surround them with love no matter how aggressive they are. Forgive them even when the things they say shouldn't be forgiven. I love the fact you forgave and looked past your dads actions. hes a difficult man but aren't all virgo men lol..... but no matter how hard he portrays to be.... I see right to his heart. and his heart is right there with you and all of you! SO never feed into his negativity, counter attack it with positivity. let him know love always wins! You will always be there regardless! and TT im in deep prayer with her.... But one thing I do know is that SHES GOT THIS! Ive seen the miracle, ive seen the recovery, and she will give in to seeing the family. Trust me. They always cave in. no one wants to be alone. So I just want you to know my love and prayers all with you all always baby. I love you Mary!!
PLEASE LET ME HELP YOU.... YOU CAN TRUST ME...
