Let Me Remind You..

Let me remind you...

I want to make this as honest and pure as possible... There is nothing out here that serves my purpose on this earth more than you... You don't see it yet... and there are no words that can help me explain that.. But I can guarantee my Love and dedication for you is completely true.... the purpose of you period...serves me internally and physically. What better blessing can I ask for.... And your family..... I truly love them all and this love thats being expressed from me and consistenly growing within me wants to be there for every single one of them... I experienced a new love from every single one of them.... your sister, keep encouraging her to always want the better version of her self. never let depression win! remind her she's surrounded by so much fucking love we would never let you fall Pooh! to many hands to lift you! And I pray over there marriage... That man would jump off a cliff and climb back up for her..... Remind them love is the best thing worth fighting for in this love and together is always better...but it takes two to be on the same page! so I will always pray for their strength to get through these endeavors. Your mom..... All i ever wanted for her is to be happy. Her soul is so beautiful..... I miss her convo so much .... but lets continue to help your mom and support her when she needs help. possibly order or cook for her time to time or a movie night to give her that relaxation she needs... and Cody and Clarence.... they have my babies over there! but JR. thats this king of the family and I will always continue to pray over him as well! & your dad......is who I would want to be there for the most.....(It will never happen probably) but my universe works completely different than his.... But I need him to be strong in his time of sickness. He has to understand that if he creates frustration for hisself it will effect him. Remind him always theres nothing to be mad at.... theres nothing to worry consistently about.... enjoy life. remind him of the kingdom he has created and the wife that carried him along away.  Keep feeding him love even when he's uncomfortable with it. let him know we all love him! 

I know you tell me not to put to much pressure on myself Mary, but this pressure is creating me into the diamond I need to be.... and when that diamond shines to its full potential Mary.... you then should inherit the best creation on this earth that perfectly resinates with your heart and your spirit.... and that diamond will one day be placed upon you to create a life long worth of memories... Mary... I'm falling deeper in love with you...and although it may seem that all this journaling is an expression on how I feel but if you dig a little deeper Mary..... You are the root to the creation of me. Your heart, your love, your family, your resilience, your strength, your smile, your beauty,..........nourishes every fucking cell in my body .... I want to fulfill every experience you've ever thought of....All I need to do is know... I I will make sure the universe makes it happen.....and trust me I understand why its cloudy for you... I just want you to always remember that behind those clouds lies a sun thats gives life to earth...and all I want to do is shine for you baby.  I Love The Shit Out Of You & No Matter How Much These Tears Fall On This Keyboard I'm Good With Knowing This Love Right Here In My Heart Is So Fucking Real....