An Emotional "The Notebook" Date

So this is my first time attempting to journal and i'm not ashamed to say that "The Notebook" movie gave me the idea lol...

So. this is completely new to me and I will be honest, never in a million years would I expect to be beside you in a movie theater recreating how we met with the perfect love movie.... That day couldn't have been more perfect. Then you had me on shrooms lords have mercy.... You know the start of today I was thinking about how much it meant to see you on our first date. You contacting me about seeing this movie just made me feel like my prayer and thoughts were heard.... I dont get to many chances to text or talk to you so watching this movie gave me the perfect idea on how to vent and keep you in the present with me even though youre not there. I guess im trying to say im always thinking about you and really miss you and your presence Mary... which is why this movie hit me so hard today....I want to be a better man..... From the start of that movie I was emotional because he seen life in that womann since the first moment he laid eyes on her and I felt like it was the same for me.... I told you what it was from the first moment we shared I memory physically together.... I meant that....just never understood it.... Being able to watch this movie with you and just be emotional was everything.... I never cried so much.... but did I cry because I was hurt, or I was embarassed? I felt all of the emotions but ye still felt disappointment.....But if i can vent and express my feelings everyday by journaling... I want you to be apart of it all... I want to get better at being expressive..... You make me want the best and not just for me but for you!!! I refuse to ignore this magnetic connection between us and Im glad I was able to watch the best love movie with you... so i guess moving forward we will see how this whole journaling things works out.. Love you Mary... this is my first time doing this I plan to get better.