The Beach With You....

Our Date At The Beach...

Lol not gonna lie..... was very excited to get to my computer and vent about this night....It was everything I could imagine plus more...I wanted everything to be perfect for you. and it seemed like you really enjoyed yourself. well at least I hope you did. Sitting on the beach and listening to you was everything ive been missing plus more. Its so much life in you and youre helping me access that best features of my heart. I can still sense the pain and hurt from you... definitely when you mentioned how much you had to sacrifice and me always flashing money... that truly made me feel like shit... but honestly I deserve everything that is happening to me. It's like day by day the pain of being away from you hurts more.....I dont like leaving you.... I dont like not being able to see you... it actually scares me...BUt my goal is growth and im really committing to the uncomfortable to become a better version of myself for you. So when I offered to give you my wallet I was serious....everything im telling you im very serious.... I want to be better and let my heart lead..... me....journaling is crazy...but my heart wants you to have the perfect love story..... so yes giving you that money didnt mean shit to me because honestly my thoughts alone of you strive me to accomplish the impossible and for that I will always be ready to lead when you are ready. and how could i forget you facetiming me once you got home.... That was the smile i needed from you......So I hope you have a safe trip. Our prayer was everything and I will always pray to keep you and yours safe! I love you Mary I really hope we can continue what was created on the beach!