Becoming Better.

Becoming Better

I woke up feeling very positive today.... I'm ready to go full force in everything I do.. I guess thats what comes with the power of prayer and my love and strength to be better for you. I started this journaling thing with the intention on letting you know whats going on with me and how I feel about you, and its becoming more and more natural for me to do. I guess thats my way of telling you I always miss you. In plus me journaling allows me to keep my damn mouth closed as well lol allows me to listen more and honestly im just in a phase of learning and growth. You are providing that to me along with life. Only thing I can think about is being the ultimate version of myself to give you the world. And only if you knew what you are doing to me. It's a miracle. I've always wanted this for myself . But you always seen me and I want you to know I'm hear to see you! You see this journal will always remind you I love you Honey and everything around you..... plug me back into your heart so you can see the energy we can produce! It's you Mary... and every chance I get im gonna remind you....that you are beautiful! You pushing me to see my son is everything as well. I know you want more from me on that as well but you just sit back.... Momma Honey is gonna make a beautiful entrance into his life soon and forever... I need my son to feel that love from you. But its ok.. The man i'm becoming will not allow anything less that you being truly comfortable and trusting in me and you better believe im on a hunt to get it back.

I was sad when you texted back saying I couldn't get Bary.... but i know you wanted me to see my lil man and dont worry I'm out tomorrow! I love you though I hope you have a great trip.